Just a girl, becoming

Soft beginnings

quiet pauses , the calm before life rushes in.

Hey Shy Rockstar!

Since declaring myself a ray of fucking sunshine, there’ve been days I felt the fog.

Not the messy, get-lost kind. The kind that seduces you into stillness and whispers, “Stay here a little longer”. And I did. I sat with heartbreaks I had already archived. I reached for softness that wasn’t mutual. I wondered if my light was fading or if I was simply resting in the shadows for a while ( the problem when you’re a shy rockstar).

The Weight of Hope

There were storms. Of the emotional kind, that tosses truth around like furniture during a fight 👀. My relationship buckled under the pressure of too many unsaid truths.

And still, I held onto hope like it was the last shot of tequila (reposado of course) at a birthday party I wasn’t sure I belonged at.

While juggling my emotions and right to rage, I learned that hope is heavy when you carry it alone. It also taught me that if you’re the softest girl in the room, definitely ask for more.

Choosing Both Light and Boundaries

This era of my life is about sensual boundaries. Lush self-love. Emotional transparency and love letters to myself I should’ve written and sent a long time ago. I can be rebuilding and radiant. Soft and sovereign.

This is for the ones showing up tender and timid but never shrinking. Remember through it all, you can honor what you’ve built through the storms and still protect what you’re becoming, because being ray of fucking sunshine isn’t about pretending everything is okay, its about choosing yourself and your light.

So my fellow shy rockstar, if you’re in a storm right now too, you don’t have to be perfect. Just honest, just here and just trying.

Lets make a our next chapter a concert and most importantly ours.

Welcome back to the vibe bestie, light a candle and let your light burn brighter than your fear.

Vibe Ritual: “Rain & Resilience”

• Lighting: Dim lighting or candlelight only.

• Soundtrack: “Broken Clocks” – SZA, “The Journey” – H.E.R., “Lost Me” – Giveon.

• Scent: Something grounding like sandalwood, cedar, or my favorite palo santo to clear your head.

• Drink: A warm cup of tea, maybe chamomile + lemon balm or a red wine with depth.

• Action: Journal for 5 minutes and ask yourself: “What parts of me still shine, even when I’m hurting?”

  Toast to your healing. You are for the vibes, especially when dimmed.🥂

We’re never getting this time back, Lets have a ball🫦

I Decided to Be a Ray of Fucking Sunshine

It happened on the bridge outside my apartment, late evening approaching in the sky and a little smoke curling from my lips like a ritual. Just a couple of hits for inspiration, enough to slow time and stretch it like warm honey. I wasn’t looking to escape, I was excavating. I was waiting for the that first divine nudge to reveal itself. And then, it did.

The world moves fast, but tonight, I’m sipping slowly

And right between shadow and sunlight, that’s where I met the version of me that decided to shine.

A Bridge, A Breath, A Beginning

A montage flickering behind my eyelids. Snapshots of life lately, messy, magical, too fast and too full. But then, clarity: I am most alive, most me when I am bringing people together, when stories are shared like food and laughter becomes a kind of communion. That is my joy. That is when I feel home.

So in that smokey, sacred moment, I made the decision.

I decided to be a ray of fucking sunshine.

Everyone’s going somewhere

Sometimes the softest light is the loudest. And sometimes, I let it speak for me.

The Decision to Shine

Not the kind that blinds you with performance. The kind that kisses your skin at 7AM through sheer curtains. The kind that says, “You can be soft and still shine.” The kind that glows with intention, and needs no explanation. Inviting, nourishing, sensual and whole.

The human Embodiment of sexy disco ball spinning slow in soft light and a sultry stare. This is slow living with a velvet edge.

Why This Blog Exists

This blog “girl on the balcony” is my temple of belonging curated not for perfection, but for presence. Its where black femininity meets slow living, where self discovery isn’t a checklist but a dance. This is where intention storytelling holds your hand and says “you’re not alone”.

I want this to be a soft landing. A long exhale. A place that wraps around you like a warm blanket fresh from the dryer. That smells something slow cooked with love. That sounds like bass and heavy beats floating out of a cracked window, Rihanna, Coco Jones, 6lack. Welcome home to silk robes over bare skin and a full bodied red wine on your tongue. I want it to feel like a hug you didn’t know you needed until it lingered.

No need to rush your glow up bestie, no mask and no need to shrink. Bring your stories, your softness and your scared mess. This light is yours too! Its for sharing, for basking and overall for becoming.

Welcome to the vibe ✨

Just flick it

Half-full glass. Half-lit lighter. The night hasn’t decided who she wants to be yet and neither have we

Before you go, I invite you to bring your curiosity along with your favorite drink as we linger in the becoming, sensual, soft and intentionally you, one vibe at a time.

Que up your baddest energy and let yourself be witnessed, even if its just by you and clink glasses. A Toast to you!

Vibe Ritual: “Sunrise, Slow & Sacred

Let’s close this first moment together with a little vibe ritual—something to center us, ground us, and softly call us back to our divine feminine. The kind that glows without asking, feels without apology, and radiates even in rest.

Lighting: Open your curtains and let natural light pour in. No overheads.

• Soundtrack: “Good Days” – SZA (for me).

• Scent: Vanilla bean or palo santo to clear your head..

• Drink: A warm latte with cinnamon or your favorite golden milk blend.

• Action: Write down 3 ways you’ve been a light for someone else, big or small.

You are already glowing, this is just your reminder.